This is a bit of a spur-of-the moment decision, but I’m going to try taking July off of mobage. Well that’s a lie, I’m going to sign in to Arknights so my monthly card isn’t wasted, but likely no farming, or very minimal. Very. No farming on JP, and no farming on Twisted Wonderland. I might only do dailies on Mahoyaku because I know I’m gonna regret not farming it at some point, so I will try.

It’s kinda silly, I know. The whole purpose of this would generally be to quit gaming, but to be honest, I think I’d be happy if i stuck with just one, and for now, Mahoyaku is the one that brings the most joy, even if quite a bit of grief. I like Arknights and I know a month is a lot of time for farming, but I guess I can take the loss if it means that I can spend time doing other things. I like the game and all, and while I am still sitting on that fic I wanted to write, I’m willing to take some time off.

What’s the goal? To not spend too much time on gaming, as I am now stuck in the loop of wanting to study, and then sitting down to start autoing dailies. That’s really not fun. It takes away from my concentration, and it overall sucks. Thankfully, I don’t need to go hard on every Mahoyaku event so while it’s very distracting, I can go back to slacking like I was before. I’ll see. Hopefully it comes to a point that I don’t have to play it anymore, either.

I absolutely want to fill this hole in my heart, but with fulfilling things, not things that only drain me. Mobage isn’t there to make me happy, it’s there to take my money, and I don’t want to feed into it too much. But I like the sensation of belonging, so perhaps I can keep playing, especially when I have the means to not save/minmax so much as I would a f2p player, but I’ll see when that time comes around.

Thankfully, since CC started, I haven’t had to log in to Arknights in the morning like I usually do. It has been replaced with a rather awful manga habit, but I can remedy that more easily.

I want to see how this goes. I want what is best for myself. I want to fix my sleep schedule, make it so that I can wake up in the morning and go skateboard, or draw, read, or study Japanese. Especially that- my illiteracy is driving me up the wall, haha.

If I decide to go through, I’ll log it on my mobile games blog. I’m too lazy to link it right now, but it’s https://reoplaysgbf.wordpress.com , I think.