I’ve been thinking, once I graduate from college, hopefully get my CPA license (though that sounds defeatist so let’s say I will), I realize there are a number of things I could do, provided I can afford it.

I know I want to keep drawing, I want to get better, because I know there’s thing I want to draw. Maybe I’ll dabble in writing?

I thought briefly about taking dance classes, but along with regular dojo visits, iI think my schedule will be busy enough. But I want to make time to read, to write essays, to analyze things I enjoy. I want to go back to taking piano lessons, maybe even try to go to music school (though Julliard seems to be a pipe dream) and learn conducting, or composition. Though orchestral music has not been a constant interest so perhaps maybe not *laughs*. I’ve even thought about taking classes in the future, like math classes, or physics.

It’s exciting, thinking about the things I want to do. I haven’t really put much thought into it in high school and college. I dabbled in things but never allowed myself to really get thrown into something, that takes my entire attention. So I want to figure out what that is. It feels as if most of my life, I’ve been putting things on hold, especially the last few years. I keep thinking, “Once I graduate, I want to do these things.” Which was odd because why not now? The short answer is that I’ve restricted myself to focusing only on school, but really it means me dragging myself through schoolwork while trying to find some instant gratification in mobile gaming.

I’m still not sure what I want to do in the future. I’m okay with accounting so long as I’m good at it and competent, but I want to be good at whatever I do. I want to make enough money to be comfortable, engage in hobbies, and get the things I want. I wonder how that’ll look like.

But I haven’t even graduated, so I better focus on this lecture instead of typing this all out, lol.

(I also want to eventually write more interesting things than this-I can’t help but feel that as a 21 year-old. I could be writing more interesting, real things.